I was scared when I first met you. I mean, making me numb from the waist down? You really know how to sweep a girl off her feet!
I seriously dislike how you made me scared for the future. How you tainted the thought of having children for me. Instead of being excited for them, you have made me worried I won’t be able to run around and play with them. I don’t hate many things, but I do hate the fact you have burdened the people in my life, people I care about. Because of you, they worry about me…a lot. This is the one thing that pisses me off the most. They never asked to have you in their lives.
I keep you deep inside me wherever I go, no matter what I am doing. I know you are always lingering, waiting for that moment when I am at my weakest. Most of the time, you are just a whisper as I continue on my mission for a fulfilling, happy life. Despite your biggest efforts, I am the happiest I have ever been, in spite of you.
Like a lot of people who have met you, you have challenged me. You have made me, hurt, numb, embarrassed, confused, sad, angry, bitter, lonely, pitiful but most of all, you have made me strong. You are one of the most important teachers in my life. I have found resilience deep down inside of me that YOU have brought out. I hold my head up high with confidence, knowing that like most people, I am surviving you. I keep those who you have deeply hurt in the back of my mind always, and close to my heart. They are always in my thoughts & are my inspirations.
You have made me stumble, but will never make me fall.
Sincerely NOT yours,